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heartxandxsoul @ 2005-10-02T11:42:00

2005-10-02T16:42:52Z

EFFING NEW EL JAY

pretty0pistol__ <---------------------------- add me now!

heartxandxsoul @ 2005-10-01T12:15:00

2005-10-01T17:28:37Z

Today = Happy birthday Kris W. V. Cantly

kay so yesterday = Fun

had school.. yea that was a drag.. but then after school.. called kevin then called jordan then called jo and janelle then tried calling kevin but he wouldnt answer his effing phone so my mom showed up at jo andjanelles doorstep and picked them up.. picked me up.. i awed over jo's new sexy amazing hair. my mommy drove us to this church in north K and then we walked from the church to this persons house on the way telling stories, skiping and linking arms (jordan included) and then we met kevin there and then i jumped on the trampoline and then sat down on the ground outside and chatted.

they played the movie on the outside of the persons house with a projecter agaisnt the side of the house.. it was steller.

then we took the bus back to the church then we tried making plans for everyone to come to my house and then jordan couldnt come so he just went home and then me jo janelle and kevin waited outside with one youth leader.

i was so cold that i was laying on the concrete so he let us inside.. me, jo and janelle played volleyball... =O i forgot about jo and janelles v-ball tournament today =( i feel so guilty aww this sucks.

but then jo and janelles mom picked us up and then she drove us back to my house and then jo and janelle stayed for about a half hour and then their mom just waited outside for them so then they left and me and kevin watched some crazy movie called i ♥ huckabees.. it was strange

then we made out and his dad picked him up shortly after that.. that was my awesome friday.. and its mine and kevins one month tomorrow.. excited? YES

so my today = chores.. kevin coming over to meet sam and devin. and sunday, shopping with johanna and katelyn and then my monday.. over to kevins after school haha..

-fin
♥

pee ess.. my ears smell cause of the stretchingness!

heartxandxsoul @ 2005-09-28T21:04:00

2005-09-29T02:26:51Z

kay so.. watch twin hawtie to the max birthday today.. PAULA ILY HAPPY BIRTHDAY..

kay so kevins hawt to the extreme getting his ear pierced.. effing hawtie boyfriend haha yay.. i was at his house tonight.. made him watch ANTM with me.. i wasnt happy to see ebony go home but i wasnt sad..

kay so im a total douche bag.. i thought i forgot my key so i sat in my backyard and did my h.w and then my sister came and opened the door and then i was washing my hands and i felt something in my pocket and it was my key.. and i was like.. RAWR DOUCHE BAG haha

fin de ma histoire de journer

♥

outa site.. you're alright

2005-09-25T15:23:20Z

sooo corpse bride was yesterday.. it was good.. i loved it.. not all my friends liked it.. but i thought it was amazing.. soo yea and then it was me marika chelsey colette bailey zane josh ryan, winning and dev. booo dev and josh.. and then we went to HOOTERS HOOTERS haha.. yea that was fun.. we sat behind this washed up musician from mcmaster and james.. i used to love them =).. he talked to amber and me and her were like =O.. XD haha..

so its colettes birthday on monday.. so we told the hooters girls and they made her stand on a chair and clap plates together as they sang to her

and then we all got balloons from hooters and we took them to my house.. amber didnt come to my house.. i wish she did cause she wouldve controlled josh and dev better than i could... and then people left slowely when we started to watch raise your voice haha.. but it was fun

ily

♥

FUCK goodbye

2005-09-24T22:23:15Z

why does life have to be so effing shitty.. people are mean, life is mean, everything blows up in my face

i feel like i have no friends

-im not liked

-im not pretty

-i have nothing good going for me

-im going to be alone and lonely for the rest of my life

- im broke

- i only have kevin and hes not here and i really just need to see him

- im such a loser

-help?

- fin

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heartxandxsoul @ 2005-09-23T07:41:00

2005-09-23T12:44:43Z

kay so its 7:30.. and im wayyy bored. well its 7:40 but whatever.. i leave in like 15 minutes to go to school.. i need battaries.. my other ones died and yea i listen to music usually in class soo yea. .haha.. my new favorite underOATH song is Down, Set, Go.. i heart it

so nothing has been happening.. i go to kevins tonight.. either that or he spends the night here.. but i find that out tonight at like.. 9

kay whats the deal.. ive gained weight.. so i decided im not eating alot.. and becoming a vegetarien again cause i want to loose weight.. soo yea.. meats bad..

well im bored.. tired and sick so im gunna head out

♥

lets redefy

2005-09-20T21:47:37Z

kay so this weekend was fun.. saturday i went out with kevin and tim.. we went to tim hortons and tim got me a hot chocolate with money he found in this girls wallet after he drove her home from a party.. anywayz.. yea then we sat in the back of tims truck and then we decided to drive without phoning to jo and janelles where keila was and so me and kevin went to the door and tim waited in his loud truck.. and then tim came in to see keila in spandex shorts haha =P.. and then yea we went and hung out in the back of tims truck and then we left.. and tim drove me and kevin back to his house.. then i hung out with kevins sister michelle and her awesome friends haha and then kevin took me downstairs.. we "watched" soulplane twice and then my mom picked me up at like.. 2 haha. that was my weekend =)

♥

heartxandxsoul @ 2005-09-16T23:55:00

2005-09-17T05:01:31Z

the concert was fucking amazing especially the used and the hardxcore african drummer peopls haha.. anyways i fuckin crowd surfed and when i moshed i got punched in the face and like.. trampled on it was awesome haha.. i love moshing.. and i FUCKING LOVE CROWD SURFING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jillians musical tomorrow and kevin comes over to meet my brothers and devin yay haha

♥

heartxandxsoul @ 2005-09-15T22:51:00

2005-09-16T03:52:58Z

kay so im pretty much the happiest person alive

i found out tonight that kevin got me a ticket to underOATH and the used and AOF ahh im shaking im soo effing excited..

nothing wrong with me

2005-09-14T22:11:52Z

1. Full Name: Lauren Willems
2. Nicknames: lou lammie, louie, louron, laureli,

3. Birthday: december 1st 1990
4. Place of Birth: winnipeg
5. Zodiac Sign: sagittarius
6. Male or Female: female.
7. Grade: 10
8. Schools you went to: tuxedo park, CJH, oak park
9. Occupation: well..none

10. Residence: my house?
11. Screen Name: 1m 500 633 y0u kn1t K3v1n <33

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Color: uhhhh reddish blonde
13. Hair Length: medium
14. Eye color: changes color, blue, hazel, green
15. Best Feature: i dont really have one
16. Height: 5'4"
17. Braces?: used to, back in grade 7...

18. Glasses?: nope. i only wish.
19. Piercing: my ears
20. Tattoos: none.
21. Righty or Lefty: right.

___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: genny cram
23. First Award: i havnt gotten one
24. First Kiss: eww brent broten.
25. First pet: nessie, she died
26. First Real Vacation: halifax
27. First Concert: back street boys in 1997
28. First Love: havent had a first love yet

___ Favorites___

29. Movie: DRC anchorman
30. TV Show: rfr family guy that 70s show
31. Colors: everything but pink and blue
32. Rapper: skee lo or toby mac
33. Band: underOATH, fall out boy, bleed the dream, MCR, the used, crossfade
34. Song Right Now: legends die - bleed the dream

35. Friend: ive got lots of friends.. right now, keila, kevin jordan jo janelle and matt

36. Candy: marshmallow strawberries
37. Sport to Play: football
38. Restaurant: baked expectations

39. Favorite brand to wear: emily the strange..
40. Store: VV

41. School Subject: umm im liking math right now
42. Animal: giraffe.
43. Book: gingerbread

44. Magazine: cosmogirl..
45. Shoes: my chucks

___Currently___

46. Feeling: effing excited
47. Single or Taken?: taken yay

48. Have a crush: you, ob-v.
49. Eating: nothingggg
50. Drinking: nothing

51. Typing: just this silly thing, and on msn to people
52. Online?: 31
54. Thinking About: how effing excited i am for underoath!
56. Wearing: red dickies and a sweatervest
__________Future__________

58. Want Kids?: umm no.
59. Want to be Married: umm maybe.
60. Careers in Mind: scientist
61. Where do you want to live: away from my parents.
62. Car: a shitbox.

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

63. Hair color: something that's pretty.
64. Hair length: above the shoulders
65. Eye color: something to gaze into and say "you have a booger" haha i had to leave that cause that was fackin funny.. made by paula.. and i dont care what eye color
66. Measurements: taller than me
67. Cute or Sexy: cutie.
68. Lips or Eyes: hmm..both.
69. Hugs or Kisses: oo hugs. but i like both
70. Short or Tall: well, taller than meeee.
71. Easygoing or serious: a little bit of both..
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: spontaneous..
73. Fatty or Skinny: i dont care
74. Sensitive or Loud: both
75. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: sweet.
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: someone who doesnt go too far

___Have you ever______

78. Kissed a Stranger: mmhmm.
79. Had Alcohol: yes
81. Ran Away From Home: yea
82. Broken a bone: nope.
83. Got an X-ray: mmhmm.
85. Broken Someone’s Heart: umm i hope not
86. Broke Up With Someone: yeah..
87. Cried When Someone Died: yea
88. Cried At School: lots.

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: umm i think i do
90. Miracles: to a point.
91. Love At First sight: umm no
92. Ghosts: kinda
93. Aliens: nah.
95. Heaven: yea
96. Hell: probably..
98. Kissing on The First Date: haha of course
99. Horoscopes: if i like them.

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't have?: umm no cause the person i want i have =)

1m 500 633 y0u kn1t

2005-09-12T21:26:33Z

sooo today there is nothing to do since its monday and all mondays are bitchez!

i have to babysit at 6:15, do homework, call pony coral and the wellington and then call kevin when i get home from babysitting

OH EM EFF GEE yesterday was amazing haha.. i met kevins family.. like.. his cousins and stuff.. i wasnt planning on going to his house but then my mom said she would drive me to his house so i was like fuck yea weekend with kevin =) haha.. and then i got there at like.. 2:45 so when i got there kevin was cleaning so i went into their "kids room" where theres like a comp and a tv and i watched tv and then kevin came out of the bathroom and he was like.. "haha make yerself at home" i was like haha and then he brought chips n salsa which are like my 14th favorite food ever haha and then his cousins aaron and jordan came over and we all hung out.. their nice i liked them.. haha kevins got such an awesome fam.. anyways then me kevin and aaron biked to pick a flick and got DRC and watched it and then me and kevin got picked up by his friend tim and then tim drove us to his house where we saw kevins dirtbike and then we went to the gas station and we did some more fun stuff haha.. and then tim drove me home.. it was such a fun night.. and kevins also mine next weekend after hes done work yay =)..

♥

wanna watch another movie

2005-09-11T16:12:05Z

yesterday was the best ever.. and bad in some spots haha. well i was trying to have everyone over.. but then jo and janelle couldnt come cause they were at their dads.. keila was dying her hair purple, matt was with other friends (booo) and then jordan lives at the other end of the city,.. out of everyone me and jordan live the farthest apart.

so it ended up being just me and kevin which wasnt a bad thing but my stepdad was home.. oh my goodness he co,mpletely embarassed me really bad he was like "kevin do you have condoms? do you need any? are you sure?"

i wanted to hit him haha but then he said he wouldnt embarras me and we went to the basement and sat there... we started out on opposite couches so i told kevin the couch he was sitting on the couch my sister and her boyfriend sit on.. so he moved haha

so we watched detroit rock city mean girls and another show.. i dont remember what it was..

then in the middle of mean girls he was playing with the holes in my jeans and found out that i was suuuper ticklish so i fell off the couch hahaha.. then i came back on and i know this is gunna sound corny but he just looked at me.. and then he kissed me.. i was like =O =D.. haha yea im a cheeseball.. what can i say.. i love cheese..

jordans gunna be surprised when he read this..

then kevin left and i went to bed.

♥

heartxandxsoul @ 2005-09-10T15:04:00

2005-09-10T20:04:41Z

if you love me you will make me a sign!

my hands smell like beer when i drink wine

2005-09-10T18:26:13Z

soo tonight im hanging out with kevin keila and jordan.. im excited cause i havnt seen kevin since school started and i hadnt seen jordan or keila in like.. a week..soo im excited.. this morning i went job hunting..

MESSAGE FOR JORDAN : it was about my dad!

ahh wow ive got some more pictures from linseys going away partayyyy woot woot.. but not woot woot at the same time.. but yes i will show them to you!

zach paige keila linsey chelsey me and liz

ash tim jo and bree

paige chelsey keila zach and ash in the back

jenny my and paul

jenny linsey liz and riely.. weirdest pic ever

beautiful josee

lizzy

steph ash and tim.. such a gangsturrr pic

paige zach brandon and kerri aww

tim with a sparkler in the daylight.. omg and keilas hawt chucks in the pic

♥

sick gangster

2005-09-10T04:10:36Z

i wish i had a penis so bri could give me head ♥

ive got a bf but i always have space for bri =)

come tomorrow

2005-09-10T03:07:54Z

umm ok well i have more pics of linseys going away partys and the day she left =(

us on the jumgle gym.. zach me paul linsey and jen.

brandon and kerri

chelsea and my love keila :)

me jenny linsey zach and bree

us again

paul in the very back in the green (going around from left to right) paige, keila, linsey chelsey me and liz and zach in the front

jenny

jenny linsey and lizzy

jenny and linsey

jenny cleaning the pool

kathrine and riely

kerri

mee errg ewww

me laughing at zach, linsey paul and zach

me and linsey =) =( i miss her

me paul and jenny eww for me again

me zach linsey and kerri

me paul linsey and zach.. eww again for me.. no good pics of me

EWW GROSS.. me in stephs pool

linseyyy

linsey again

linsey and bree

linsey by stephs pool

linsey and jenny at the park

i cant tell whos in the pool but its jenny on the side

linsey in tears.. =( and lizzy

linsey and zach

linsey and zach awww cutest pic ever

linsey in tears wearing kerris hat.. she looks hawt in that hat but sad in the tears

me and liz looking at pictures

paul and jenny

sarah and kathrine

sarah linsey and kathrine

shondra and sarah

steph

tim!

zach n linsey

its depressing looking at these i miss her dearly

glass breaks everything

2005-09-08T03:19:30Z

go ahead and love me

leave my heart behind though

im so screwed up

everything is fucked over

i miss having you here... telling me which way to go

i just need someone.. to keep me from bleeding my sins

dreaming about monsters, about you and me, i know you'll never love me and much as i realized i always have loved you.

am i fucked or are things going to turn up for me

♥

heartxandxsoul @ 2005-09-07T16:16:00

2005-09-07T21:17:08Z

fuck school

ew wanna fuck me, i didnt think so

2005-09-07T03:58:33Z

soo today was one of the more interesting days ever!

i got up phoned all these places that i applied at and none of them had looked at my resume which is poopy, then i was supposed to go to VV with keila jo janelle kevin matt caleb and jordan but that didnt work out.. because i was suposed to meet jo janelle and keila at the movie theatre at like.. 4 but i got there at 4:20 cause i missed my bus by like.. 2 seconds and then i called kevins cell and him at matt were gunna call me when they got to polo so.. yea.. and then i went and walked around.. spent like 20 minutes in HMV looking at all these CDs i wish i couldve bought that i didnt have the money for, then i went to blue notes and i saw PAULA who i had met once and she was the neatest girl EVER so we were all excited and then she was with a girl named Lisa that i had met at chuck n mo so i hung around with them and we were being stalked by these creepy wanabe gangsters.. so we went into zellers and they followed us through the makeup and girls sunglasses section and then the line was taking too long.. and then kevin called me so they told me to meet them in the food court so we waited another 10 minutes in line then we gave up.

the creepy guys had already left and were waiting for us outside of zellers so we were freaking out and Paula said they were only gunna "rape us tenderly" haha

so i met kevin and matt at the food court and then Paula was getting fed up with those creepy stalkers so she finally told the security guy and then we saw PAUL AND JEN =).. and then me kevin and matt went to zellers and paula and lisa went on their way

now i was still followed by those creepy guys and then they stopped us and pulled out an effing knife and asked kevin if he had a problem.. and i was scared shitless so yea then they were being all friendly after and they walked us to the movie theatre and then kevin bought my ticket. and i feel bad when people pay for me.. so i gave him 10$ and then he paid the creepy guys bus fair and 5 bucks.. so then we went to 40 year old virgin and i saw dear steve O and i miss him.. haha.. ok well this has been long enough..

♥

stone me?

2005-09-06T04:03:21Z

one of the best nights of my life.. i went to kevins at like.. 5:30 and then we watched cat woman. halle berry is really hawt for her age and then i made kevin watch New York Minute haha and i dont think he liked it very much.. then we went to jo and janelles (the twin towers) at like.. 8:30 and then we all hung out there... with keila jo janelle me kevin and matt... short stuff haha.. then we did some fun stuff then went out the window in the playroom and i hurt my arm really bad =(.. but then kevin kissed it better =) haha.. and then my mom came at like..10:30 after me and keila finished laughing like little creepy girls haha yesssss! and then i came home and im writing in my el jay haha.. yess ily

♥

something you wanna say to me

2005-09-05T18:26:49Z

September 5th

Today was pretty boring.. im not really doing anything.. iwoke up had a shower listened to blink 182,

applied for jobs,

then on the way home.. my mommy got a flat tire on her green car and we waited for like an hour to find out that it had to be towed so we have to use the dinky red car haha.. but yea later on im going to dear kevins house haha ill update about that later

heartxandxsoul @ 2005-09-04T21:29:00

2005-09-05T02:30:23Z

September 4th
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written

burn me with your cigarette

2005-09-04T21:56:05Z

September 4th 2005

im so confused

he says wanna be a part of my makeout session? i say yes but theres no action

you say the attentions all on me, now shes always there

you say sorry for confusing you at the movie, but you lead more confusion on me now

do you really want me here?

do you really want to be with me?

or is there something totally wrong with me

i shouldnt have waited for you

now do you wanna be a part of my makeout session?

♥

happy like me <3

2005-09-03T22:09:54Z

September 3rd 2005

Oh Em Gee yesterday was one of the best days of my life.. ok it was kevins 16th so jo janelle me and keila went to moxies and waited for everyone else to show up soo then jordan came.. we didnt think he was gunna make it but he did and it made me happy and then kevin came and he wanted to take a picture of everyone on his new camera phone.. oh and kevin is the guy i like.. anywayz i wouldnt let him take a picture of me.. because i looked like a piece and then matt came and we went into moxies and me and jo split nachos and they were yummy =).. i didnt eat much cause i wasnt hungry but yea after that.. the guys had a conference kinda thing and me and keila put this chocolate stuff on our faces and kissed eachother cheeks haha so we had chocolate kisses =) and then we walked around the mall and then we walked to kevins from the mall and it was a looong walk..

on the way there people always went off into their little groups and talked and no one knew what the people were tlaking about.. and then kevin told me he had to talk to me and i was like.. hmm ok.. and i started to get nervous.. but then he asked me out so it was all good =) and of course i said yes cause well i like him haha

then when we got to kevins i talked to his siter for a while and then he kicked her out.. then we watched a bit of baseketball and it is a pretty good movie haha then his friend kristen and kate came over and kristen already knew about me from when me and kevin went out before haha.. then we went outside and found out that kevin has a trampoline haha.. so we sat by the fire and me and keila burnt our shoes.. well not really i almost melted the bottom of my shoes haha they burnt my hand when i touched them..

then CALEB the hottest man alive hahaha (other than kevin hahah) and his girlfriend lindsay came and then a girl named katelyn who kevin used to like was there.. i didnt trust her haha.. but whatever.. k they came and we all talked and made fun of thses 2 girls who were calling matts cell non stop and caleb and kevin took turns tlaking to them and then kristen finally yelled at them haha and then she hung up. haha

everyone left and i gave kevin some pictures of him and me and then i left with jo janelle and keila.. it was the best night ever!

♥

down with me and life

2005-09-02T04:36:31Z

september 1st 2005

i love keila haha im writing about her shes got black hair with plumb tones that are now red and 7 piercings.. ears bellybutton and eyebrow, she loves UNDEROATH lioke meee and she also loves AOF,the used,AFI,rise against,hawthorn heights, stutterfly, silverstein, MCR and taking back sunday. i just gave her a hug. she has 3 siblings.. her birthday is november 28th 1990 she is 2 days older than me =).. haha ok well we hung out today like right now we are hanging with jo and janelle and alessandra.. yes its fun times we made ice cream cones and talked on the phone to keilas friend korey haha.. yesss its fun times..

♥